Well, it's working.
I've developed this fear lately. A fear that I'm not sure I necessarily want to admit, but I'm going to anyway.
I am terribly, inexcusably, and sincerely afraid of college.
I'm more afraid of college than I am of going half way across the world for three months. You see, with certain things, like most normal (or abnormal, depending on how you look at it) human beings, I don't like change. It makes me worry and it makes me uncomfortable. If I had a pencil right now, there would be teeth marks in it.
But here's the thing.
Recently, I've had a strange wanting to go to Clearwater Christian College. I don't know why, but I have. And I know I would get a great education and I'd have a lot of fun with the people around me. I know there are a lot of rules, but I figured out later today, that's it's not those things that I'm worried about.
College just scares me. It means I'm considered an adult. It means I am given more responsibility. It means I have to make decisions without anyone else holding my hand. It means I need to fully rely on God. I tend to be a little (okay, a lot) on the independent side of things, and leaning on God instead of myself is a hard thing to do. It makes me nervous to think that I don't really have control over my life... not that I did in the first place.
All of this to say, I guess I want to encourage you. As I try and lean more on God, I want you to try to do the same. Whether it's with school, or a boyfriend/girlfriend, or with home situations, or anything else that you might think of. Proverbs 3:5-6 says to trust in God with all of your heart and to not rely on yourself; look to him for everything and he'll guide you.
peace, love, and counting on God