Friday, August 1, 2008

Blah. Guh.

I'm sad... Do you know why I'm sad? I do. It would be bad if I didn't know why I was sad.

Cory left this morning to head towards Ft. Sill, Oklahoma at 6 am. I miss him terribly. None of you probably want to hear about this stuff, but oh well. I have a point to all of this. So I cried at least seven times yesterday and a little bit this morning as I said goodbye, but then I went to work where I was distracted by my friends there and I was okay. Until I got home. I cried a lot because I was alone and there was nothing to distract my thoughts from drifting toward Cory.

But every time I cried (and here's my point), Bible verses flooded my brain. The first person I went to for my sorrow was God. Not having Cory around whenever I want to see him is a huge change and I miss him so much, but I know I would be worse off if I didn't have God. Almost every time I cried and prayed, I felt a peace come over me, and though I was/am still upset, I know God is keeping an eye out for me - 1 Peter 5:7 says so. Plus, I know God wouldn't let anything happen to me unless He knew I could handle. Obviously He thinks I'm pretty strong. I don't know where He's getting that from...

My emotions have been pretty crazy these last few days (and he only left this morning), but I know I'll be okay. I am so thankful I have a boyfriend who I know would do anything for me, but I am even more thankful that I have a God who offers His unconditional love and protection when I need it most.

peace, love, and roller coasters.
kaeli.

3 comments:

Cory said...

You are the beth!

uthpastorjj said...

wait, you're the beth, too?
I thought that was my wife?

Anyway, this is an amazing blog. And Cory's an amazing guy. I'm proud of you guys, and thanks for helping out today!

kae ricc said...

Haha, thanks.

Anything for the fam.